I am not a jealous person

I am not a jealous person, it's something that someone has to scam me on for me to feel angry about but by the second decade with him, he'd finally figured out how to install the jealousy button in me.. Jealousy is a combination of love (you love someone therefore they become family)
and pain (that someone broke a promise about your family safety)
and anger (that someone treated you with disrespect and rejection) and he finally figured out how to do all three things to me at the same time so I had no time to process it and it became traumatic for me and once that happened, he could push that button and that's called living in a "climate of fear"..