"D" would be talkative, cheerful and fun as long as I wasn't in the room, but as soon as I'd enter the party, he'd drop into silence and just stare at his folded hands on his lap..
I would feel the rejection so deeply,, but not make sense of what was happening cuz no one else would see it the way I did..
I tried to leave so many times,, I've moved on a thousand times..
What he did was subtle, most folks didn't even make a conscious connection because he wasn't that important to them,, but it always effected me and he knew it..
I was asked once, why I would let my friends meet him if he was so manipulative, but in truth, I didn't recognize what was happening when it was happening,, and once the damage was done,, I could never figure out how to fix that part of our friendships because no matter what they thought of me,, I always looked like I was complaining about an angel.. (to them).. I'm so freaking happy to be processing all that manipulation and pain I've been carrying around,,, he sucks,, boo hiss on assholes..
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